It comes in waves
Waves that relentlessly pound
Waves that smash you into a wall
One picture…one memory…is all it takes
The reality that a warm hug is not an option
that she’ll never walk through the door
that she’s gone – forever!
The emptiness of her absence brings
a sting that doesn’t subside
a deep ache that permeates my very soul
Say her name…please say her name
Remember her…please remember her
My beautiful girl, how I miss you…
To that new life that is being formed in your Mommie’s womb:
Oh, that I may learn that you will have your own life journey. May I not taint it with my doom and gloom. But most importantly, may you know that you are LOVED no matter what♥
We anxiously await YOUR arrival🌺
What if in my preoccupation with the sunset, I miss the sunrise?
What if the pain of the thorns, is worth the beauty of the rose?
What if in my search for hidden treasure, I miss the pearl of great price?
What if the shadows of the unknown, distract me from the known?
What if my preoccupation with the grave, keeps me from living?
~~~ Today is a gift…don’t squander it! ~~~
〉〉〉 S – C – A – R – S 〈〈〈
each with a story of it’s own
joyful & traumatic – bitter & sweet
visible & invisible – physical & emotional
other inflicted & self inflicted
by strangers, by loved ones, by self
〉〉〉 S – C – A – R – S 〈〈〈
some repulse, others bring a smile
stories of heroism, stories of survival
freely spoken, cautiously guarded, safely hidden
〉〉〉 Scars are part of LIVING 〈〈〈
Motivation Monday! How does one wrap it’s brain around such a lively subject? How does one who lives in a constant state of blah, get motivated to even move? Who would stand in line to watch a dud? Who would pay money to see a flop? Yeah, no headlines here!
The come-back-kid. The rags to riches. The from nothing to somethings are the ones who get the applause, the adulation, the pats on the back. Never disappointing. Always pushing through.
What if the dark abyss is more inviting? What if it beckons one to enter in and never look back? What if in the midst of all the colors of the rainbow, grayness is ones go to spot? Do I repulse you? Do I annoy you? Do I disappoint you?
Can you fix me? Can you pull me out? Do you even want to try…anymore? Like a sling, always coming back to the same-ol-blah.
Stagnant…Monotone…same-old-song.
Ah, my unwelcome friend, you’re back!
Your unannounced visits can be so aggravating,
the length of your stay unknown.
The continual task of learning to welcome you, to embrace your presence
can be exhausting and debilitating.
Your mysterious character unravels me
I don’t understand you! I can’t figure you out! I can’t defeat you!
Accepting your presence; embracing your constant companionship
…is…well…healthier…I guess…
Dare I ask that your visits be less often? shorter? or none at all?
AND, so, I sit with you, my unwelcome friend…
in acceptance and surrender
learning to simply be…
The sound of the pounding waves ~ ~ calming…soothing
drowning out my weary soul
Pounding, wave after wave ~ ~ crashing…soothing
at the break of dawn…sunrise ringing in a new day
His mercies are new every morning
a welcomed sight to my numb soul
The vastness of these waters cannot drown out love
it magnifies it
it amplifies it
Take it in, oh hurting soul…drink deeply and be refreshed
Twists & Turns ~ Highs & Lows
Twisted corners, on the path…blind spots everywhere
Just enough light for the next step
Abundant grace to persevere
Plans set in stone, crumble & disappoint
Picture perfect canvas, tainted & smeared
Trust & Surrender ~ Held by Grace
Surrounded by nothing, yet tightly oppressed
Noise so intense, yet nothing makes sense
sleep, yes…what a relief
turning and turning…wake up in a sweat
Surrounded by masses, yet feeling alone
Mumble and mumble, yet silence is best
sleep, yes…what a relief
turning and turning…wake up without rest
If the coldness & deadness of winter was all there was,
then I’d be stuck in The Path
If the pain & discomfort of childbearing was it’s end,
then I’d miss the joy of a New Life
If the worm infested grave was The End,
then I’d have no purpose for Living
🖤HOPE – beyond the here and now🖤
✝️HOPE – beyond the grave✝️
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